After a day of hitting F5 and typing my school’s official website on the URL box (with shaky fingers, If I must add), they finally posted my first term grades.

GPA: 3.38 something. That takes me to the Dean’s List.

Hep hep, that’s pretty high I know, but to be honest I’m pretty disappointed with my grades. I was rooting for a first honors DL, which is 3.4 and above. I can’t say exactly why I’m disappointed with a 3.38. Maybe because I’m just a point 02-ish far away from my goal. Or maybe because I’m so used to being an overachiever. Or maybe because this is below my high school classmates’ expectations. Or maybe because this isn’t the best me.

Yeah I know. Ungrateful bitch. I MEAN MANY PEOPLE HAVE IT WORST RIGHT?

I’m too down and shitty and guilty to even type on this rant/semi-emotional suicide blog. Okay whatever let the judgment ensue. *eats word vomit*